Your too much....

Yes you are.... really you are.....

Mabait ako at hanggat kaya magpasensya, ggwin.. marunong makisama at hindi basta basta ngagalit.... pero alam mo yung sobra n... yung tipo bang balde ng tubig napupuno man.... ganun k n kasi...

Isipin ko man... khit gaano ako mkisama s inyo... lalo s iyo... darating p din s puntong lalabas at lalabas ang hindi mainam mong ugali.... ewan ko pero.. sobra k n kasi....

Yun lng...

must try....

Sabi nga nila new year... new things...new people...new places... at madami pang "new" s buhay daw.....

I don't believe n dpt dhil bagong taon, bago din ang lht s buhay mo.... howell.. pwede namang i-keep yung mga "luma" lalo't may malaking impact ito s nagdaang buhay at trash n lng yung iba dhil wala namang kaiga-igayang nagawa s buhay mo yun..hehehe...

Well.. d ko naman ugali ang "magtapon" basta basta... pero isa s mga nagustuhan ko ngayong taong ito eh ang "mag-isip".... kung magtatapon o hindi....hahaha...

Wait... hindi nmn patungkol s 5S ang blog n ito.. kundi patungkol s mga "must try" ko.... anyways.... yesterday i had the opportunity to try something new.. first time s buhay and yeah.. nghalo ang excitement at konting takot..... aba naman s tagal ng panahong iningatan ko tapos "first time ko gagawin" .. pero ayun n nga ginawa ko din...

Anyway, the experience was kinda different....hahaha.... habang nakahiga ang daming tumatakbo s isip ko...hahaha. partida almost 16 hrs ng gising yan h??? Nadagdagan p n mejo malamig yung lugar.. so in short ang sarap matulog lng db??? Hay naku dhil nga pagod n ako at ayoko n mag-isip, so while waiting, pinilit ko n lng matulog..... bahala n pag-gising....ganun???

Yun n nga, in less than an hour... tapos n.... may masakit, malamig, mainit at kung ano ano pang feelings.. pero wag ka, masakit din pala tlg... pero kelangan tiis...eh ginusto mo ito db??? hahaha... hindi pala.. gusto niya.....dinamay lang ako...hahaha....

Ewan ko b pagtapos ng lahat ng yun.. nag-iisip uli ng bagong pwedeng gawin... naisip ko lng siguro nga next time mas magiging madali at magaan ng gawin uli yun kasi nagawa mo n before... at siguro naman the next time n mg-try uli ng "iba" besides dun... mas madali n lng kasi nga na-i-pass mo n yung bagay n yun...

S ngayon siguro mas na-excite akong mg-try ng bagong "gagawin".. siguro nga i have to consider this n.... hahaha.. at kung kelan hindi n bumabata sk p ako ng-isip ng mga ganung bagay ngyon...

Pero seriously.. i'm really taking into consideration pursuing this.... wala namang masama db?? Isa p, i'm at a "sobrang"legal age n....hahaha.... it has nothing to do to harm myself but rather improve myself and making me more of a woman.... isa p, kung masaya nmn ako at ok nmn s pkiramdam ko db, y not, choconut...

So does it mean... see you at the end of this month??? Hahaha... let's see.....

See you again "pink blush"

sea food island....

for experience purposes lang naman .... had a great time with these great people at ATC... last saturday....

matagal n kasi naming kini-crave ang mg-try mg-boodle feasts.. at yun n nga after going back to work.... eto agad ang salubong n ginawa namin... welcome salvo daw nila s akin...hahaha...

in fairness.. affordable naman ang price para sa group h??? pero kung ilan lang kayo mejo mahal siya tlg.... exclusive pa kasi ang drinks dito.. eh yung ganitong meal lang costs P1,300+ n... and they call it TALI BEACH...

s fud... feeling ko lng naman.. hindi ganun ka-yummy.. unlike dun s ibang kind of fuds n natikman ko n. pero kasi nga ang habol mo lng naman eh experience.. yung sabay sabay kayong kakain ng naka-kamay sa isang malaking dahon ng saging n andun n lhat.... parang sa military nga... hindi nmn kasi lht masasakyan yung ganitong trip diba??? khit p nga set of frends kayo...

imagine mo nmn kasi db??? halo-halong kamay n yun at halo-halong pgkain n din.. pero kung hindi k nmn maarte... eh di okey n tlg siya.. mabubusog k n din nmn tlg kasi wala ngang maarte...

basta kung gusto mo ng experience s ganitong klase ng fud trip.. try mo siya... together with frends n walang kiyeme sa katawan h???

enjoy....

walang updates

it's been how many months since d n ko nkpg-updates s yo... ang totoo ang dami ng nangyari..hehehe.. gusto ko naman tlg sabihin lht eh.. kaso alam mo yung pag andito n ko at nakaharap s yo.. wala n akong masabi...hehehe.. ewan ko.. speechless b???

anyways.. try ko tlg mgkwento n uli s yo....

ayan h.. para me abangan k nmn... lam ko gusto mo n din mkarinig ng updates s kin eh....

for sure.. na-miss mo ko ng sobra.... hahaha

the answer....

just like the others... you'll soon be forgotten....

why would invest too much time and energy thinking of you.. when just like the others..... makakalimutan ka din... and actually.. nakalimutan n nga eh... naaalala n lang kasi may ibang taong nagbabanggit p din s yo... at take note h??? sila ang nakakaalala s yo...

minsan  nga sarap sabihin s mga taong ito... why don't u ask the person itself???

kasi sa akin.. wala kayong sagot n makukuha eh... baka sa kanya "marami" kasi siya naman ang pakay nyo db????

next question pleaseeeeeeeeeeee?????

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

sine mo 'to....

ikaw talaga.. ayaw tumigil..... ang lakas din ng loob mo maging bida s harap ng iba at gwing kontrabida ang ibang tao.. pero kung susuriin ang totong kwento ng istoryang gusto mo ipalabas.. nakakalungkot kapag nalaman ng lhat n hindi pala ikaw ang bida tlg kundi ikaw ang kontrabida.... kulit mo din eh...

maitanong ko lng... me background k b pgdating s pggwa ng istorya??? i mean s paggawa ng isang makabuluhang istorya... na merong magandang script or story line.. may magandang setting at mga dekalidad n taong gaganap...plus ang mgandang pagdidirek at bonggang production design???

Kasi kung wala nmn, wag mo n lng ituloy ang gngwa mong istorya.. kasi kawawa nmn ang producer n mg-po-produce nyan.. siguradong malulugi lang siya.. dhil tangkilikin man yan eh baka s unang araw lng at pagdating ng susunod n araw eh hindi n.. or bk nmn s umpisa p lng eh flop n agad.... sayang....

dhil ang totoong maganda at de-kalidad n istorya... eh nagmumula s isang totoong pangyayari... at kung sakali mang likhang-isip ang gusto mo gawin.. mangyari lamang po n gawin mo itong anime para nmn nakakatuwa at nakakatawa.. at least d sayang ang lht ng pagpapagal mo s pggwa ng isang istorya....

parang sine mo to..... istorya..istorya..istorya....

thanks...

Thank you for i really enjoyed every moment i am with you people.....

the ever beautiful and talented kidzone

mga magagandang young people

mga magagandang young people

mga gwapong young people

mga gwapong young people

and to many (whose pictures were not posted here).... i know.. i believe...

i will be seeing you very soon......

i have a promise.... and i will fulfill it...

thanks again guys:

just keep the fire burning for Jesus.......

the more i am decided.....

The more you see how God keeps on blessing and blessing you day after day.. the more that you really wanted to share that blessings to others....

Isn't it one of the reasons why you are still here??? TO be a BLESSING to OTHERS....

It's really an overwhelming feeling  to be a channel of blessing to anyone.. in any ways.... and I am so thankful and would like to give BIG THANKS and HONOR to my Abba Father... for I know that it's all about Him....

And the more I experienced His love.. the more I am grateful and blessed to do the same with other people... 

Really life is all about Jesus.... and His ministry is all about people.....

the reason why..... the more i am decided....

it should be "be yourself"

Finding yourself is being yourself.....

and this is what i wanted to tell you eversince......

"You don't need to LIE.... just to get to the bottom of this....."

"Find yourself and once you do.... "BE YOURSELF"

NO LIES... NO PRETENTIONS... NO MAKE BELIEF....

JUST DON'T LIE... OKAY???

STOP IT BEFORE IT HITS YOU AND BECOME MISERABLE.....

LIVING IN TRUTH IS LIVING IN JOY....

DON'T LIE ANYMORE.....

sweet......

ganito kami noon???

Eh ngayon kaya????

hahaha..... syempre..... MAS LALO NA.....

at yun ang hindi alam ng iba....

sweet pa din namin db????

hooray for today!!!

happpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..........

after reading your post and status...... eto lang ang nasabi ko agad........

 sana happy ka din tlg........

got yah!!!

this should be what goes our mind right???

The more you know yourself.. the less you are affected of others' opinion of you....

but sad is.. ito p tlg yung nlilimutan ntin... kaya nga khit hindi n tyo yun, sa sobrang k-desperaduhan b ng buhay eh eto at ngiging tayo yung hindi nmn tayo...

kung minsan, affected tyo ng mga tao... ng mga sitwasyon, ng pligid ntin kaya tuloy yung dpt n tingin lng ntin s sarili ntin eh ngkakaron ng kulay..... ay naku ewan.. nauunawaan ko b??? hahaha....

pero ok lng yun.. dumaraan nmn tlg tayo s ganun eh... basta ang mhalaga, eh wag tayo tumambay s pgiging ganun....

at kpg minsan eh praning k n tlg s buhay kaya nagiging ikaw n yung hindi dpt ikaw... let this be a reminder for us all...

ang alam kasi natin "anghel" tayo.. pero kpg tiningnan mo ang mga sinasabi at gnagawa ntin lumalabas yung pagiging "demonyo" s loob natin... at aminin natin n lht tayo dumaraan s stage n to....

pero ang totoo p din at dpt mo lng paniwalaan... MABAIT AT MABUTING TAO PA DIN TAYO... APEKTADO LANG TAYO NG MAALINSANGANG PANAHON ....

kaya the next time n umatake s atin ang pagiging masama uli....pakatandaan mong.. HINDI KA SA GANYANG PARAAN TININGNAN NG DIYOS... katulad ng kung pano mo tingnan ang sarili mo...

"hindi lahat ng nakikita sa salamin ay totoo.... kung minsan, kinakailangang pakatitigan mo ito ng mainam..."

sa iyo makulit....

para sa isang makulit na tao... hahaha... sobrang kulit mo lang talaga....

ewan ko ba s yo pero kung minsan gusto ko na tlga patulan ang kakulitan mo eh.... kaso naisip ko.. hindi pala ako ganun... kaya bahala ka jan s pangungulit mo... hahaha...

hindi p nga kita naikukuwento s bestest ko eh.. pero alam ko napahapyawan n kita s kanya d p nga lng tlg ganun k-detalye kasi ang dami mong gngawang pangungulit eh.. pero promise ko s yo.. one of these days.. ikukuwento kita s knya at lht ng makukulit n pinaggagagawa mo.. sana nga lng wag ka msaktan s kakulitan mong yan....

at sana lng din eh mejo tumigil k n.. alam mo n too much expectations leads you to too much pains...

ako kasi sanay s mga tulad mo eh.. eh ikaw b sanay s mga tulad ko????

kaya wag n makulit h.. makulit n tao???

inhale....

so kamusta ka naman??? the last time n nag-blog ako for you.. i'm thinking kung nk-get-over k n b tlg after that hurtful situation??? remember yung time n sinabi mo s kin n " before betchay, i'm afraid of being alone or being left alone co'z i dont want to be lonely forever ... but now.. i know the big difference of being alone and being lonely..."

kaya nga mega-blog ako s blogger ko patungkol dun s naging pag-uusap ntin.. kasi mas nasasabi ko yung gusto ko sabihin s yo.. alam ko nmn we always had a limited time talking because of our busyness but despite of that we both know that whenever we need each other.. palaging available tayo para s isa't-isa in whatever forms of communications... (i just hope you take time reading my blog for you).. hahaha...

anyways.. after a couple of weeks and days.. my next blog is this... "inhale the happy thoughts"... yeap!! you read it right... i know that for some time now... nothing surrounds you but only happy thoughts and memories...ganun k kasi eh.. for a while syempre dala ng maalinsangang panahon ng pagkabigo natural lang n mejo sad ang pligid db... ?? pero ikaw n nga din ang nagsabi n you've grown a lot better now... and thanks to me(ehem!!!) dhil i have imparted that good seed in you... hahaha.. sige n ako n tlg.... kaya loves kita eh...

seriously... i just want you to know.. that everyday... everytime i see your face and your name.. i keep on thinking how far have you already move on... how good and better and best you are now because of that... and many wonderful things that God has continue showering you and pouring out despite of that painful situation...

your a strong man.. right???  and we keep on believing that it's just one of the many great things that will happen to you for you deserves all the best in everyone and everything....

until my next blog for you... love you dear....

yeah right....

right????!!!!

look differently....

maybe this is what we should do both..... hahaha.. we both had the time expressing what we feel and  now.. i know you will agree with me in saying this.... look up .. db???

let's get it on.. dear.....

where do you stand???

there's a big difference in being alone and  being lonely....

 minsan naman talaga it's not a guarantee that being with someone can make you happy or can make that person happy.... wat if.. napilitan lng pala siya kasi no choice n eh.. tipong there's no turning back this time kasi mas mgging complicated ang situations pg ginawa ko...at dhil akala mo nag-stand n siya s ganung decision... howell.. man enough n siya to prove to you n mahal k pala niya... kasi nag-stick sya s yo eh... pero wat if nga hindi pala.. and sooner or later, makikita mo din pala ang lahat... ang mas malinaw n picture... dhil alam mo s sarili mong nakakapagod din pala ang ganitong set-up....  would you choose being alone or lonely????

most of the time, we try to make ourselves believe  n being with someone is the best choice and fighting for it is most rewarding... pero what if ikaw pala ang nkikipaglaban until this time... that despite all the things you've done and you've sacrifice for that person... hoping someday.. he would love you back.. eh nararamdaman mong it's not as what you expected or hope it would be... alam nating most of the time ayaw natin aminin pero you can never hide the truth of it... co'z whether or not you hide it and make face with other people.. at the end of the day.. exhausted ka kasi alam mo s sarili mo yung totoo.... hindi k p din masaya.... would you chose being alone or being lonely??

we tried to make ourselves p nga believe n wat does that person says is true.. pero hindi kaya ikaw lang ang gustong maniwala s sinasabi niya kasi ito yung makakapg-satisfy s yo at para n lng to make the long story short or i-shortcut n lng ntin.. eh d sige, maniniwala k n khit p nga iba ito s totoong nararamdaman at sinasabi ng puso at isip mo... hindi b ganun??? kasi ang totoo, ayaw mong masaktan.... ayaw mong ma-reject s huli....would you choose being alone or being lonely??

well, i think at the end of the day.. choose nothing from this two... why choose to be being alone or being lonely when you can be happy being alone.... don't let fear continue to strikes you down, dearest... there's a lot of wonderful things awaits you... whether if your with someone or your all alone... it's a matter of mindset....before, you've got to live your life alone... no lovelife.. no frends.. no acquaintances... and yet your doing fine... who in this world can tell you now that you cannot experience that same happiness just like before???

khit kasi me kasama ka or nag-iisa ka lang kung pinipili mong maging malungkot or magpaka-praning s kalungkutan... naku naman,,, malungkot k tlg... at hindi yan dhil alone k or wat... e db nga, me kasama ka man ngayon.. pero ang tanong ko lng... msaya ka ba talaga o nagsasaya-sayahan lang para lang tahimik ang pligid... ksi kung ano ang nkkta ng pligid, yun ang alam nilang totoo at tapos, wala ng tanong-tanong.. o db.. safe n safe k.. kasi alam mong d k pwedeng mag-lie kpg tinanong k n ng isang tao...

pero bilib naman ako s yo eh... alam kong alam mong dumiskarte s buhay n ito... alam kong s mtagal n panahon n pinagsamahan ntin eh, sigurado nmn akong mdmi k n din bagay n natutunan...

basta wag ka lang magpaka-praning h???  alam ko naman n alam mo ang sagot dito eh.....

THAT BIG DIFFERENCE IN BEING ALONE AND BEING LONELY.....

what else to say....

CHOCOLATE WASTED CAKE

for you .... para naman hindi ka sad.... s kakaisip s mga bagay bagay n nangyari... siguro nga sumhow, your wondering bkit ganun... kung kelan ka tahimik at masaya saka me magulo db??? ang sagot.... ewan ko... try mo n lng mag-isip at mag-evaluate.... bk masagot mo tanong mo....

hope this cake could help you with what you've been experiencing right now para mgkron k ng peace of mind at love s heart mo.... after all that happened.. remember.. mdmi p ding taong nagmamahal s yo.. basta wag k lang praning most of the time.. eh ikaw p nmn me tendency n always praning...khit d n dpt.....

Chocolate cake... well alam kong sumhow gusto mo ang chocolate at ang cake... 

Wasted.... ksi naman waste of time ang maging nega s bagay-bagay.....

 

just enjoy the cake as you enjoy your life.....

 

 

the idea of resting.....

Yeap!!! You hear it right blogger.... it's been my top most things to do... REST .... ng mejo mhabang panahon h???

It's not that I don't like to work but hello... I've been working with my present company for 14 years now... and add another 2-3 years from other companies I've come to work with.. and i haven't experienced that long rest i ever wanted.... yeah, i've been leaving from work from 2-3 days but for sure it has a lot to do with doing ministries in the church or attending things with my ate in their church in pangasinan... everything is for other pipol p din.. but don't get me wrong... i never regret doing those things for them co'z it's one of the best things i've ever done in my life... doing other things for other pipol... sumhow.. i feel a great satisfaction of being in service for other pipol....

Pero minsan, gusto ko mransan yung mahabgn araw n walang pasok... (kaya ko kaya???).. oh baka nmn mainip lng din ako s bahay... kasi nmn sanay n kong pumasok almost evryday at khit ang araw ng restday eh ilaan s ibang bagay n dpt gawin....

Pero ksi mdmi p akong gustong gwin eh kpg walang trabaho... oo. mdmi p... s church n lng dami ko dpt gawin... mga tasks n hindi ko mgwa dhil s k-busyhan s trabaho. isa p sobrang hectic at hirap ng sched at mga gngwa ngayon.. ewan ko b, bigla nwalan tlg ako ng time s ibang bagay n dapat kong gwin s ministry ko... pero alam ko nmn, soon, mggwa ko uli yan.... hindi ako ppyag n mging gnon n lng yun for life.. ako p.... kaya wait lng... m-grant lang ako s mhbang bakasyon.. hahaha.. trabahong iglesya nmn ako...sarap.....

Basta bahala n.. malalaman ko din nmn soon eh.... kung pwede n nga lng din mg-resign db??? kso syempre my mga considerations ako tlg lalo pat isang mlking desisyon ang ggwin ko to resign... hindi nmn s hindi n ko msya.. pero i really want to try something else.. something different.... something n unique...

Before, hindi ko sure kung ttagal ako ng 5 years s work.. tpos lumampas si 5 years, then next sbi ko 10 years kaya.... pero s loob ng 10 years, never ko naisip mg-resign.. pero ngayon hindi pla just last year... parang gusto ko n mg-iba ng daan... nbigay ko n nmn ang lht ng kaya ko s trabaho... at alam ko naging mainam akong empleyado ng kumpanya ko..... at yun ang mhlaga....

Basta.. bahala n.... if GOd's will n mkpg-rest ako ng mahabang panahon.. y not db??? khit walang pera s pgbabakasyon.. ok lng.. gusto ko nga yun eh.. yun bang normal n tatakbo ang buhay.. ksi before nmn ganun tlg eh.. masyado n lng din ksi tayong minsan dependent s pera... pero sarap mranasan nun db??? at alam kong msusustain ko yun dhil hindi nman ako lumaking palalo.. kaya mas enjoy ang bakasyon ng tahimik at walang mdaming pera.... hahaha

Ay naku.. basta ini-imagine ko n sarili ko n andito s ganitong lugar.....

oh ang sarap db???

Habang nag-iisip at nagmu-muni-muni ka, nakaharap k s pambihirang creation ng Lord... more than enough reason to praise and thank God for everything... everything He has done.. He's doing and He will soon to do... knowing that whatever happens.. whatever your decision will be.. whatever circumstances brought you...your still confident enough that YOUR CREATOR.. YOUR JESUS.. IS ALWAYS AND WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU TO ENJOY YOUR JOURNEY AND THE LIFE HE HAS BLESSED YOU WITH....

looking forward to this enjoyable vacation with my Jesus!!!