crossroads....

CROSSROADS....

torn between the two.. torn between left and right... torn between loving you and hating you.. torn between being happy with you or letting my tears flow freely because of you.... torn between choosing to make me happy or choosing to make you happy.... torn between helping myself or helping you.... torn between being with someone else or staying with your side...

and so many more... torn... torn... and torns... just like a rose...

now i know why i dont like rose..... yeah it's beautiful.. but i think i don't like the idea that it has torns in its stem...the idea... that when you handle it without outmost care... you'll get yourself hurt with its own beauty and fragrance....

no body wants to be always on the loosing end right?.... no body wants to be left behind...? no body wants to be hurt and feel rejected..? no body wants to feel that your not important and that no body loves and cares for you....?

that even to the point of hurting the person who handles you with utmost care coz that person know your value.. know your worth... you don't mind... after all you know that person loves you... that person would definitely stays...just like the rose...

but just like the rose.... it always has its end.. like anything in this world.. that has a beginning and an end... that rose would soon withered.. that rose would soon die... even if you place it in a vase full of water and put some aspilets on it.. you know it will not stay long just the way you want it.. it is destined to stay for just a period of time and then withered... and soon die.... and before you knew it.. that rose that once makes you happy... makes you smile when you had it in your own hands... is now the same rose that your throwing because it has no more value....

and now caught up in the crossroads of everything.... WHERE SHALL I GO????

TO THE LEFT WHERE NOTHING'S RIGHT..... ?????

TO THE RIGHT WHERE NOTHING'S LEFT..... ?????

...... given some time to think and feel deep within your heart.... and mind... and soul.... WHAT IS IT TELLING YOU...?

YOUR CHOICE..... YOUR STRONG AND HARD AND A VERY COURAGEOUS PERSON......

never choose something that you know will not last.... never picked a flower when you know soon will withered... never be excited with what your eyes see for now.... any acts can fool you.... you really don't know the meaning behind it......

YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH... YOU KNOW WHAT YOU CAN DO... YOU KNOW WHAT YOU CAN GIVE TO OTHERS...YOU KNOW WHAT CAN MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY AND IN RETURN SOMEHOW KNOW YOUR VALUE IN THEIR LIVES....... YOU KNOW YOU HAD A LIFE TO LIVE... AND LIVING IT WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE TRUE... HONEST AND SIMPLY KNOW YOUR VALUE WHEN YOU ARE WITH THEM AND EVEN IN YOUR ABSENCE...

YOU DON'T NEED HUNDREDS AND THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE SURROUNDING YOU....WHO AREN'T REAL..... FOR SOON THEY WILL FADE JUST LIKE THE ROSE.... BUT BE THANKFUL AND VALUE THAT YOU HAVE ONLY SOME... 1...2...3... 5... 10.... BUT YOU KNOW ARE REAL... TRUE ... AND HONEST EVEN IF YOUR NOT WITH THEM... BLESS YOU PEOPLE.... BLESS YOU REAL SPARTANS..

and as i may qoute:

NEVER DOUBT YOUR VALUE..... NEVER RUN FROM WHO YOU ARE ...

--- Azlan----