ang dami kong gustong i-broadcast s yo ngyon... pero henestly, walang lumalabas s bibig ko at isip ko...
ngyon ko b kailangan ang "matalinong" tao... para umunawa ng nrramdaman ko.....
ang totoo, ni hindi ko nga, m-define what's making me feel this way...pero i really feel uncomfortable....
ewan ko, hindi ako kinakabahan pero alam mo ung feeling n kpg dinaanan k nya... ntitigilan k at mglalaan ng konting minuto n tanungin... "anong ibig sabihin nito"?... para ksing tinatambol ang puso ko kpg naisip ko un... pero walang definite n bagay or tao or pangyayari...
ah basta ang gulo... na-pa-praning nga ako eh... iniisip ko lng... bk sobrang i-surprise nya ako... bk umiyak n nmn ako?... wag nmn...
madaling mg-analyze ng problema ng iba... madaling mlmn kung my sumthing wrong s ibang tao... pero pgdting s kin, khit ako nhihirapan...ang labo...
sana nmn mgpakita n sya pra mtpos n ito... ang hirap ng gnito... ngging stagnant tuloy ako... para bang nmmanhid ang klhati ng pkiramdam ko dhil s knya....
hindi ko gusto ang gnitong pkiramdam... pero hindi sya pwedeng ibalewala s ngyon...
the last tym i have this same feeling... it really happen... and i was surprise...kaya tuloy sbi ko, ngyon kaya uli...
although my ilang bagay akong naiisip ngyon n bka pwede ito or ito or ito... ang labo ng real picture nya s kin ngyon.... and wat makes me feel uncomfortable is the fact that i really have to wait for this to happen..
not xur of this two things for now... maaaring nangyari n.. or nangyayari p lang... either of the two... its not under my control at wala akong access n pigilan ito....
aaahhhhhh!!!!!! anong gagawin ko... many times i've said to God.. pls. Lord, let me know this now....
and all ive got is .... silence....
habang gngwa ko ang blog ko ngyon, eto n nmn siya.... nagsisimula... pero kailangan mgmdali... i have to divert my atention... not to entertain it... and stay on foucs...
focus.. focus.. focus... bka mawala k s daan kpg inisip mo yan....
now the question is....do i have to wait for this to happen or do sumthing to prevent it from happening..... which is which...clueless of everything... no clear picture as of now... not even signs or links of it...
or am i just fooling myself... maybe i already knew it... but just afraid to accept it....
but since it's here in my mind and heart.. i know for xur... this will goin to happen.... soon....
what am i goin to do????
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